The Jack Miller Archive

RM: And that's what I said before what I'm really, what I'm really concerned about is that the centerpiece not be Jack, that it would be the glory of God, that shows this man at this particular point in this life, filled him with the spirit and sent him back. So really, it was really the way God captured Jack's heart, the way he understood the spirit, and just listen he just, he just is an obedient son you know? And this brings Glory to God. Sons, sons and daughters of a living God are obedient this brings glory to God because in ourselves, I mean I know enough of my own self-centeredness that unless God just moves, a lot to move, you know, and in my heart. And then when Bob prays often for himself he just prays against his, his independence and his self-centeredness you know. Like he said we thought that the essence of sin was self.. Certainly which is a New Life (inaudible).. #1:37:46.1#

RM: You know. So I just want to be sure that that you know that it does bring glory to God, that it emphasizes what God is doing, two different points, like when Barb, Barb in Mexico when Barb announced well that she didn't want anything more to do with him? I didn't hear this until later. See a lot of times when God just worked in Jack's heart he never shared with me. Anyway he didn't. But anyway he said at that point in time in his life he was so overwhelmed with he love of God that it just, it just stopped her. It just, I said Jack why didn't you tell me this you know. I guess it was just so personal to him. That was... #1:38:45.4#

RM: But anyway in the hardest time, that was probably one of the hardest times in his life when Barb said, said, did what she said, so he needed the assurance that God really loved him. You know even though his daughter was turning against him. So there was this one time I think I told you this when we had a lot of people living in our house, when we had the room downstairs. You'll see the house when you get there. It was it was our bedroom and . .

You'll see the house when you get there. It was it was our bedroom and he said one night he said he woke up and there was a dark shadow was coming toward him and he just cried out and his heart saying what's my problem. I mean that's kind of how it came out. And he realized that he needed to confess that pride in his heart. And immediately he did that and whatever it was coming toward him left. You know so those were, and then when it, before we were married, he was on the lookout (inaudible) and sunset just came in from the Pacific Ocean right into his room and he said it was just a glory road and he just gloried in it. The funny thing is when he first became a believer, you know he was so angry with God because he had really tried to become a Christian. And finally he just said to God he said who do you think you are (laughs). #1:40:35.9#
RM: And God said, who do you think you are? (laughs) #1:40:38.5#

RM: So he just, he just knew he said he wanted to be God of his life and that's what he struggled with. So he got down on his knees and just poured out his sin. He was just filled right away with the spirit with love for Christ, he went to his mother, and he hated the church, it was a little Presbyterian Church that really wasn't impacting peoples lives at all, he went to his mother and he said I want to preach to the church. And his mother said you can't do that you're not a Christian (laughs). But he preached, you know. He went door to door telling people, I mean, they would, that's what caught the attention of the builders in San Fransisco, you know. I mean he nobody said this is what you have to do, he just did it you know. So a lot of people would know grace. #1:41:34.4#