Family Vacation: Rose Marie says, “I Don’t Know if I Believe in God"
Surprised by Grace: Rose Marie Miller's Story, p. 6
While staying with Fred and Lena Herron's home. Location: Believe In God," Harriman, TN
"The more I thought about it, the more I was paralyzed. What to say? How to say it? When to say it? And then afterward, Did I say it right? It was hard to get Jack to hear how I felt. I often complained to him, “You don’t listen.” But all I gave him to listen to were problems—my own and those of the people who lived with us. Worse yet, I expected Jack to act as Holy Spirit and solve these problems for me. I expected Jack to make the people who lived with us holy, and I expected him to make me happy. Jack, for his part, didn’t listen to the deeper struggles of my heart. The pressure built inside me until July 1974 when we vacationed in Tennessee. Walking by the lake one evening, I blurted, “I feel like I am walking under a dark cloud. God seems far away, and I don’t even know if I believe he exists.”" from "NOTHING IS IMPOSSIBLE WITH GOD" by Rose Marie Miller, Chapter 1